Guilty

I feel it in my gut. The guilt is big and heavy and travels all the way up into my throat. I almost feel like I could be sick. It's so uncomfortable I have to hold myself back from getting off the couch.
I feel guilty for doing nothing!
I'm not committing a mortal sin here, I'm just resting, but it feels like I'm committing a crime.
Guilt is self punishment, so I obviously view my current couch sitting activity as the worst way possible to spend time. I could be making dinner while my daughter naps! There is laundry to do. The list goes on.
I want to feel comfortable and joyous when I do what my body-mind needs. I'm getting better at listening to and reacting to those cues, but still I doubt. Logic takes over and I start to judge myself and poo-poo my emotional guidance system. By linking in to my emotions and my intuition - magic happens! It's scary just leaping out into my day with no plan. Sometimes I start driving down the road with a list of errands to run in my mind. When I feel a strong and good attraction to one in particular, I go in that direction. Sometimes it makes no sense to drive out of my way to get groceries, or arrive at a store before it opens, but I'm learning to trust. When I trust my gut and my intuition, things magically work out. I get what I'm asking for in record time. Things manifest super fast!
 I'm learning the language and laws of the universe. It's all about energy and attraction. It's all here inside of me. This is so exciting!